This fact just sinked-in to me recently:

Ako na lang pala ang single sa amin sa mga ka-close ko sa church.

Ahhaaaa. Not insinuating anything. Do I feel the pressure? Not really. Do I feel left out? Well, definitely yes.

Like for example, music ministry practice is over - or any other occasions that involve them - of course the couples [the drummer and back up singer, the usher and the back up singer, the bassist and the back up singer, the guitarist and the other bassist, and the song leader and his girlfriend who isn't attending our church] always talk together, walk together, then go home together.

Then how about meeee?

I really have no problem about it before because I have a companion before this nonsense - until not too long ago. My CLOSEST churchmate had this so-called MU daw [which I doubt if it's really MU!] At ayun, I can't help myself but feel jealous ... are friends really like that? They spend less time with you if they already have this special someone? I just hate it.

Yes I want what would make her happy since she's a very close friend, but why like that? Sometimes when the three of us are alone together I'd just like to disappear right there and then since I feel like I'm just a third wheeler, excess baggage. Abala ba ako? Okaaay. Then I'm out of this scene.

RANT. RANT. RANT.
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This fact just sinked-in to me recently:

Ako na lang pala ang single sa amin sa mga ka-close ko sa church.

Ahhaaaa. Not insinuating anything. Do I feel the pressure? Not really. Do I feel left out? Well, definitely yes.

Like for example, music ministry practice is over - or any other occasions that involve them - of course the couples [the drummer and back up singer, the usher and the back up singer, the bassist and the back up singer, the guitarist and the other bassist, and the song leader and his girlfriend who isn't attending our church] always talk together, walk together, then go home together.

Then how about meeee?

I really have no problem about it before because I have a companion before this nonsense - until not too long ago. My CLOSEST churchmate had this so-called MU daw [which I doubt if it's really MU!] At ayun, I can't help myself but feel jealous ... are friends really like that? They spend less time with you if they already have this special someone? I just hate it.

Yes I want what would make her happy since she's a very close friend, but why like that? Sometimes when the three of us are alone together I'd just like to disappear right there and then since I feel like I'm just a third wheeler, excess baggage. Abala ba ako? Okaaay. Then I'm out of this scene.

RANT. RANT. RANT.
1 Comments